Was I Really That Good?

The hardest lens to look through is an objective one on your own life. To put aside the bias and rose-tinted glasses is a tough feat.

Looking back at my own life, as I so often do, I had to come to terms that I wasn’t the greatest person. As much as I would like to think I was a good person, there is much evidence to show otherwise.

There’s evidence in my actions, words and intentions.

Much, if not all, came from a place of insecurity. This would later get bottled up and transformed into anger, making me some sort of twisted alchemist.

However, being able to see my own history for what it is has opened opportunities for real growth, healing and transformation. As I realized, those negative traits don’t simply go away, they stay and manifest in other ways.

It’s what I tell my students: the people around you don’t go away when you graduate—they become adults.

Being a better person then, isn’t only looking at ways to improve, but really recognizing where are you suck.

I wasn’t as good as I thought, but I still have a lifetime to get better.